depression is embarrassing because sometimes it makes you miss appointments and not return phone calls and when the fog start to lift you gotta do a whole fuckin apology tour. thats shit is crazy.
recently getting help and realizing things i assumed were quirky personality traits are all actually trauma responses has been devastating. how much of me actually belongs to myself and how much of me belongs to the trauma
how do you tell someone "i'm not ignoring you i'm just disconnected from reality right now and the days are all blurred together and i feel completely apathetic towards everyone/everything around me so it's really hard for me to maintain a conversation" without saying that