There are people who are blessed with smooth careers paths, their prayers are answered with immediate effect, then there’s the rest of us, who plead, fast, pray, promise God things, negotiate, consult, cry, lose hope, regain hope, cry before our prayers are answered.
Nobody talks about the angry stage of healing. The rage you feel when you realize how much and how long you were taken advantage of. The absolute disgust you feel towards those people that mislead you. It comes in waves. Sometimes you'll feel healed and then it suddenly hits you.
- How heavy is the emptiness you carry inside? I see how much holding on has taken away from you, how the light in your eyes is fading, how your loudest laugh is an attempt to hide the sadness and that all you need is just someone to hold you tight so you can finally let go.
Have you ever mourned the person you used to be who was so full of life, assertive, bold, adventurous, loved taking care of themselves and all that?
Now you are really just existing and just grateful for breathing.