2025 has been a year of FIRSTS for me..
- Released my 1st body of work, my EP!
- Traveled overseas to perform!
- Assistant Directed my 1st musical!
- My 1st movie as an actress came out!!
- Directed my 1st musical!!
There were so many beautiful moments! I just can’t believe it😭
Matt and I start our own family. I’m growing in the reality of that, but today was just very difficult, unfortunate, and telling. *deep sigh* I also realize today was a hard day for the country at large so this issue is considered small rn. Nonetheless I’m sad about all of it.
Over the years I’ve often asked God why He gave me the family that I have. I don’t feel close to most of my family members. I often feel misunderstood and I don’t know that I actually matter to them. I feel like I’ve inherited some of this resentment from my parents and today…
to tell them that they are wrong for how they treated me. I want to go off, but I know that won’t help anything so I just feel brokenhearted. I want a family that is close and a group chat that feels safe. I’m really just grieving the fact that this won’t be my reality until..