Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉

⛧tourettic anorexic⛧ ꩜ self mutilator ꩜ not fatphobic ꩜ hbmi 29.3 ꩜ lbmi 17.4 ꩜ cbmi 17.4

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

Don't want to quote anyone but that little trend,
Highest(?), lowest, goal, dream(?)

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

I also meet schizotypal though and I don't think I meet schizophrenia in the dsm so I need to talk to my psych and ask her if I am just schizotypal but I am also autistic so I don't even know if I can be both cause of the exclusions in the icd

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

I was trying to convince myself for an hour and a half earlier that schizoaffective is a completely different thing from schizophrenia and that I don't meet the criteria for it but I do, at least in the icd which is what the code on my chart is and in the icd sza is scz+Bp or mdd

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

I think my schizophrenia is what made me believe I had DID for so long, maybe I do, but it makes sense that the dissociation is just psychosis and the voices are internal hallucinations

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

@ruthmantic I was fat my whole life I was obese for a lot of it, you can become a healthy weight without an eating disorder, this disorder has stolen everything from me. It doesn't get better when you're uw i promise. You can recover and be happy for real I believe that truly please be safe

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

Wait I meant extreme, according to that one paper

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

Just 15 more pounds until I am classified as severe anorexia eek!!

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

Just 15 more pounds until I am classified as severe anorexia eek!!

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

@ruthmantic Well I was, and I wish I recovered when I was! 4 years is a long time to be struggling with this and I really hope you can get out of it soon you are so young this will steal your life from you

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

@RewiredChaos I would say if u are safe, know how to keep urself safe, and are able to function fairly well and seek help when in an episode then meds aren't necessary! I have schizoaffective and I see you have schizotypal I mostly like abilify I'm on 2mg that might be worth looking into!

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

@RewiredChaos Also medication isn't necessary if you can manage it with lifestyle changes and therapy, but if you have like bipolar or schizophrenia it is better to also be on meds

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

@RewiredChaos Ive been on well over 25 in the past 11 years sometimes it just takes a long time to find what works, sometimes u have to tough out the side effects and then also up ur dose before giving up, sometimes u need to lower it, sometimes you need multiple medications it just depends

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

Maybe bmi 17 isn't that bad (flexing vs not)

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

Almost anorexic in my vitals teehee just gotta get my heart rate in the 50s (I prepared for this appointment to be 112 on their scale after I was 126 in July and they didn't even weigh me bruh)

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

@0Xx_unkn0wn_xX0 Yeah even my BMI 17 doesn't look like this, muscle is a blessing!

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

@r3xicvoicez You don't, nasty that people are giving you advice

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

The difference between flexing vs not, stop thinking all body checks are people in their natural form

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

Realizing some of my dissociation might actually be catatonia now that I know I am a schizo

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

Okay fat fuck had 3 slices of pizza (only 1 when with people) cause I went to an event but I got to take 2 whole pizzas back with me so now I have infinite (like 2 days worth) of c/s material!! Will fast for real tomorrow

[Keirys ✩°｡✮🍉 @punkmutilator]

Fasting today besides the 3 bits of granola I had impulsively I want to be 110 on the scale with clothes and shoes on by Wednesday so just 2-3 more pounds to lose