If I think about it I think he’s the main contributor to my mental shit, maybe I’m not supposed to remember my childhood coz maybe it was the same. But idk if he’ll ever understand me or ever love me really
Lowkey sucks when u realise ur dad is not as nice as u thought, I never realised how bad he was until I was medicated. I put up with so much of his shit for so long, he scares me. I hate walking on eggshells at home wondering if he’s mad or happy (when is he ever happy)