been living in burned out survival mode for months for no good reason (I don’t even work a full 40 hours most weeks, imagine if my life was actually hard 🤡) and don’t know how much more I can take but what option even is there except for the obvious Bad One?
sometimes I just get really fucking sad bc how am I going to become a DVM & start an animal rescue if I can’t even take the trash out? the answer is, I’m probably not. which devastates me. sometimes I wonder if it’s all worth it just for day after day of burnout & treading water.
i’m so tired of everything being too much for me all of the time. why can’t I be a normal person with responsibilities, who can keep the house clean, and also have hobbies sometimes? why can’t I just complete a simple task and not take 2 weeks? why is that so hard? i’m so tired.
which is also why I’ve been saying for months/years I need to be forced into it 😫 sure it’s hot and all but more than that, it’s necessary 🥺 or I probably just never will
and when I consistently fail so miserably at being a productive grownup, how can there be time or justification for trying to be a carefree lil baby? 🥹 so here we are..
I know this isn’t the place for this. I’m so inactive here, especially in a kink sense, I should delete my account. it’s just a safeish space to vent into the void a little, but nobody signed up for that tbh😅
I gotta sit here for 45min til the overnight person gets here..technically I should prob find things to keep myself busy but they’re already not gonna have that much to do as it is, so :3
if anybody ever feels inclined to try to help me access that part of me again, in a completely platonic sense (for whatever reason—I don’t have much to offer in return lol)..well, I am here (kinda) 🥹
I fear I haven’t been in a truly safe & soft headspace in so long that I may forget how, and that I may never remember 🥺 and think that’s one (of a few) reasons I’m much less active here…wondering if I don’t really belong anymore.
"Aww why are you whining sweetie?? You filled your diaper exactly as mommy asked! It would be a shame to get you changed out of it so early! Why don't you dry those tears and go play and learn to enjoy your stinky, squishy pampers" <3
@asleepydoll yessss I used to do this n was gonna do that!! was just curious if anyone still made them here but I think I’m going to :) we could compare!! 💖