⋆˙⟡ / QILIN .

⠀⠀⠀⠀: all love, must leave.

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

☆ qilin huang, 20 ooc / 23 ic.
just a voice of thoughts. <3
norwegian - english.

“if everything is meant to come to an end, i hope that my essence will continue to live within your soul after my passing. remember me, feel me in the cherry blossom petals.” q.h — 01/04/24.

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

— i felt it in my bones, the quiet tremble, knowing that this would be the last time i see you. your touch will become unfamiliar to me now. the smile i saw in the early mornings and the smell of your skin. there’s no good in goodbye, just a weeping sorrow i cannot console.

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

— i do not need an audience, if i am accompanied by your two eyes. basking in the sunlight that sharpens your silhouette. carved straight out of my prolonged daydream, creating ripples in my perception of reality. for as long as i have you, i would have known love in human form.

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

— i’m standing here by the streetlights. missing you more than ever. the echoes of us, running down the empty sidewalks in a ghost town we once called home. i wonder where you went, where you’re going. if you’re happier without me when the sun sets and you’re on your own.

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

— i see you in my dreams sometimes, hoping my thoughts will reach you across time and space. my empathy overflows, for a ghost that turned pain into hope. even if the night grows cold, i promise to hold you close, hopelessly and endlessly longing for a touch of your heart.

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

— do you see my hesitation? the trembling of my lips as i curve them into half hearted smile, coated in insincerity. hiding the world’s problems away from you in hopes that you also won’t drown in the endless sea of voices. if i were to go down, i’m not taking you with me.

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

— i’d kiss you goodnight and let you rest in my embrace, as the memories of yesterday fade away. where the willows weep, you cradle me to sleep. every physical touch feels like soft petals grazing my skin so heavenly. if i were to die tonight, let this be my last lullaby.

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

— he was an artist and she was a poet. he turned every sonnet into beautiful artworks with gentle paintbrush strokes. and she became the inspiration for all his colors while crafting her sentences. being each other’s muses in the symphony of artistic expressions.

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

@corporatebbg okay, will do <3

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

— no revenge, because i don’t keep a tight grip around the hatred you let fester in your being. no revenge, because i faced my feelings and took accountability where i could. no revenge, because i actually did the work to be better. and now i’m finally enjoying the warmth.

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

@theloncwolfe so so proud of you <3

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

@theloncwolfe i adore you to bits, you matter too. never forget that.

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

— i’ll slip away in the dead of night, when you have fallen asleep and i’ve kissed you goodnight. i’ll leave with the first rays of sunlight, without looking back. perhaps, you’ll convince yourself i was nothing but a dream, curated from your own loneliness and desolation.

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

@theloncwolfe i adore you so much li, i’ll make sure to sprinkle some dream dust over you so you’ll have the most beautifully vivid dreams ever.

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

— i’ll let you hold my heart in the palm of your hands. i’ll give you the power to crush it into pieces if you see fit. i’ll let myself fall in love with you, despite the destructive consequences that might follow. i’ll risk it all for you, my sanity, my soul and my heart.

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

@goththinker more like what i feel you need to express.

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

— i always bit my tongue to cater to your needs. never fully expressing what i felt in fear of your distain. trying to turn my pain into something beautiful to put on display. bleeding myself dry for someone who couldn’t even begin to fathom the depths of the endless ocean.

[⋆˙⟡ / QILIN . @qilinxs]

solace — the chiffon curtains slightly parted, the light slowly seeping. covered by blankets and surrounded by pillows that carries every tear you’ve ever cried. the static sounds of the radio on a channel long forgotten. the world keeps moving, even when it feels like you don’t.