reticent

happy only for brief moments when I forget

[reticent @quitequiet84]

i love you. goodnight, goodbye, good luck or something

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I know happiness is supposed o be a journey and not a destination but what's the point if the falls are too overwhelming

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The bad slowly seeped back into me. It always does.

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I haven't been on here in a while and it's because I forgot about you

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Do I have to fucking kill myself to get through to you

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Listen I fucking adore the idea of blowing my brains out so don't fuck with the thin part of my life that makes me feel anything

[reticent @quitequiet84]

I kept your secrets and misdeeds for years but they had to come to light eventually and I hope you'll understand someday

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I never imagined losing you like this it feels like it's my fault but if never would have happened if you'd just been a good person

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Losing you was inevitable but I still avoided it and now it happened and I feel like I'm dead

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I put so much effort into you I put so so so so much I just wanted to be connected forever

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THIS IS REALLY GOODBYE AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO PROCESS IT

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I need a balance between loving and hating you that doesn't feel so horribly empty and typical. We were never like the others.

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I don't love you anymore. It was all a waste.

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It's been 2 years to the day since you asked me out and changed my life and today, I was asked again by someone else. Full circle.

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everything just feels dead since the reality of america's nationwide hatred & lack of humanity was shoved down my throat this week

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I'm growing so sick of this and sick of you

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me: "from now on I'm not talking to him"
him: "send nudes"
me: "well okay that seems reasonable"

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feel more like a sex toy than a friend

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I keep imagining myself saying goodbye but I can't. I'm so scared. I know I'll regret it if I do but I'll regret it if I don't too.

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I need you to text me tonight. I need to say goodbye

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I want to wipe every memory of you out, it's not worth it anymore