Another form of low self esteem is definitely being too available to people who have shown you countless times that they lack a sense of urgency and enthusiasm towards you. I know its hard but regulate your nervous system to calm down.
l've tasted being a great employee, and I've also tasted being the hero at work. I highly recommend doing the bare minimum at work, getting paid, and going home.
I really hate the anxiety that comes with corporate life. It is 4pm on Sunday evening and I can already feel the pressure of the week ahead breathing down my neck.