I explained one day to my therapist that my job as a digital artist online makes me very anxious, especially when I get behind on my work, which in turn slows me down even more. She dug a little deeper, asking what I draw, why I like it, and why I also fear posting it some days.
Eventually she stopped me mid sentence and told me the one thing I've known but needed to hear it out loud.
"Stop seeking validation from the internet."
@Joe_nomore@literallyme_bad I already explained myself once and saw nobody cared.
I can reflect on it until I’m dust but I’m not groveling for the acceptance of a crowd that wants to see me lose, anyways.
I’m comfortable with who I am
JRR Tolkien wrote, "Evil cannot create anything new, they can only corrupt and ruin what good forces have invented or made." We thought he was writing about injustice, violence, power, etc., but he was telling us about the nuanced evils, those that take things of value & virtue and turn them against themselves. This 'sequel' is that: taking something of value, and making is valueless and mundane. Cultural necrophilia at its finest.
@_VGen_ I'm looking to apply for a #vgencode! #VGen
I don't have a commission page public at the moment, but I have past commissions I have made here (10 years worth): https://t.co/YBmB25d4Wu
And my portfolio work is here: https://t.co/w3p7Wy9qbb
Vgen: https://t.co/a4DQSeKQOB
I want everyone who reads this to cherish the relationships and friendships you have. You're very lucky to have others who care about you and want you. Some people don't have that. Don't take it for granted or else someday you'll be all alone, feeling nothing but anger and loss.
I am grateful for everyone who follows me and enjoys the art I do. My life may not be amazing, but I'm genuinely happy with my art and am forever grateful for all the amazing artists that I've gotten to know and be friends with over the last year or so.
@Alixesque Sorry to hear this wasn't enough to fix all the pain. A second surgery so soon after this would be nuts... here's hoping it doesn't come to that. Glad you still had some fun in May, though! Hopefully June treats you better, you deserve it.