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[lala @randomidkm]

How many times have you typed “i’m fine” while crying? #sadtweets #sadquotes #

[lala @randomidkm]

i never felt like i belonged. no one saw my fear. i was always screaming, wondering why no one could hear. i begged for a love i didn't receive. so i gave up hope. i stopped trying to believe.

[lala @randomidkm]

i kept running away from my darkness until i understood that in it i would find my freedom

[lala @randomidkm]

i was complaining i had no shoes until i met a man who had no feet

[lala @randomidkm]

i be trying to look out for everyone else but all i want is for someone to notice my pain too. sounds selfish but u have to understand me.

[lala @randomidkm]

you can only love somebody as much as they love themselves. otherwise they won’t let you. and its not like you could change that.

[lala @randomidkm]

i didnt let you go because i gave up on
you. i let you go because i accepted the
fact that there was nothing else i couldve
done to keep you. to keep us.

[lala @randomidkm]

even if someone locked your heart in a cage and threw away the key, then you should allow someone to make a tent beside your cage and decorate your cage with flowers from outside. Even if your heart is bleeding, blood is good for plants cause it has iron.

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Three minutes to contemplate if its worth it
Two minutes to fall asleep
One minute too late.

[lala @randomidkm]

Ten minutes.
It takes ten minutes for the brain to make a decision
Ten simple minutes,
Deciding between life and death.
Dangling on the dangerous line that is willpower, With hope you'll choose the right decision, And uncertainty that you won't.

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Nine minutes to cut off your air flow
Eight minutes until you need to get up for dinner.
Seven minutes to swallow a bottle of pills
Six minutes to have a shower
Five minutes to watch the lines turn red
Four minutes to get changed into pajamas

[lala @randomidkm]

When you laugh, it starts in your soul and ripples all through your bones. It fills all the spaces that were once so hollow.

[lala @randomidkm]

Your mind is a story that deserves to be read
Your body is a universe that demands respect Your soul is a song that deserves to be heard

[lala @randomidkm]

but if it’s love,
when it asks you to come along,
it will not ask you to leave yourself behind

[lala @randomidkm]

i fumble through my drawer
remembering where i keep all of my pills. i grab out the ones im looking for
as i recall that you only need more than one to od. this should be the easiest.
the water swishes around in my mouth as i swallow a packet at a time. iwont fail this time.

[lala @randomidkm]

i feel the wet tears clinging to my face as the moonlight peeks through the cracks of my old window shutters.
i can hear the voice calling me, enticing me i cant control myself. i set my letters out unlock all of my named notes and turn off my face id and password.

[lala @randomidkm]

i never felt like i belonged. no one saw my fear. i was always screaming, wondering why no one could hear. i begged for a love i didn't receive. so i gave up hope. i stopped trying to believe.

[lala @randomidkm]

she’s gone now.
the girl who would’ve stayed through every storm,
held your shaking hands,
fought for you when no one else would.
one day you’ll knock,
and there’ll be no answer
just silence,
where her love used to live.

[lala @randomidkm]

i’m tired,
not the kind sleep fixes,
but the kind that lives in my bones
and weighs more than my body.
i’m sorry.
i wanted to love you better.
last night i relapsed again,
and it tasted like you.

[lala @randomidkm]

Loving you was never what hurt. It was the most beautiful thing I ever did. I gave you everything, even parts of myself I never got back. I just wanted you to love me the way I loved you. But now I know, you couldn’t.

[lala @randomidkm]

she loved me as much as i loved her. she wouldn’t tell me how perfect i had to be or how my body should look like. she would only look at me with those in love eyes because in her eyes i was perfect. she wouldn’t compare me to anyone. why did i let you go.