rapesick 𝜗𝜚

did something good happen

[rapesick 𝜗𝜚 @rapesick]

Learning to recognize when someone is dying inside in front of you without words is something they’d have me teach to first graders at a school assembly, and all the children would love me as the small animals and you realize I mean no harm despite everything I am me not another

[rapesick 𝜗𝜚 @rapesick]

my internet tabs are 500+ different academic journals my phone galllery is full of pictures of you and my notes app spills out with all the ways i would if i was alone with you

[rapesick 𝜗𝜚 @rapesick]

https://t.co/3fVbAqW9Fx

[rapesick 𝜗𝜚 @rapesick]

“I loved rapesick until I realized he was mentally ill and scary. I should have seen the signs…”

You loved me? I didn’t know that. That’s cute. I should have read the signs. They were all red and spoke “stop” in braille when I started to touch them which reminded me of you.

[rapesick 𝜗𝜚 @rapesick]

You cannot unmask me because I tear, I rip my face off in front of you. Fingers and hands go under my eyes when I tilt to let you see into my brain, where my ocular nerves spill and sprawl and connect to what form I embody for you. Tell me what you see.

[rapesick 𝜗𝜚 @rapesick]

I always had a bad feeling about that “rapesick”

[ouba @oubagaku]

everyone secretly hates you and is just waiting for you to say something dumb so they can say "i always had a bad feeling about that guy..."

[rapesick 𝜗𝜚 @rapesick]

There’s nowhere I can be held that won’t poke you, prick you, or stab you

[rapesick 𝜗𝜚 @rapesick]

It depends on what kind of eye contact we make

[rapesick 𝜗𝜚 @rapesick]

I went outside to see the blue moon and think of you, and I did not see the moon. She was hiding, thought of you. I saw the trees, and they were waving to me. I wanted to say “ohayo!!!” but they were not sakura trees; they were Douglas-firs. I was afraid they would not understand

[rapesick 𝜗𝜚 @rapesick]

https://t.co/vt8ajOB2QZ

[rapesick 𝜗𝜚 @rapesick]

I can pull myself out just long enough to write these for you, but imagine that I suffocate and die afterwards, and imagine that you are my breath that I take and I hold

[rapesick 𝜗𝜚 @rapesick]

do not could not would not will not will never

[rapesick 𝜗𝜚 @rapesick]

There is a kaleidoscope in my eyes that does not run out; you do not walk away once inside

[rapesick 𝜗𝜚 @rapesick]

I want a ribbon butterfly in my username like you, too

[rapesick 𝜗𝜚 @rapesick]

I want a ribbon butterfly in my username like you, too