i need to actually pull my fucking shit together and focus on everything that's ahead of me, instead of everything i lost. it's not coming back. i have to move on, or else i'll die here, frozen in time where nothing ever changes.
i want history museums. i want art galleries. i want forests. i want waterfalls. i want oceans. i want long car drive. i want concerts. i want book stores. i want rooftops. i want star gazing. i want to travel. i want to feel.
i want to be good. and do good. and be nice to people. and make people happy. and have good and healthy relationships with people. i want to learn to forgive and i want to understand other people. i want to be loved and adored and i want to love and adore
what doesnt kill you will have you naming 5 things you can see 4 things you can touch 3 things you can hear 2 things you can smell and 1 thing you can taste
nothing humbles you more than realizing how many things you once prayed for are now a part of your normal life, and you barely even notice them anymore.