raven

too young to be fat&too old to starve || cw: 44.25 || cbmi: 18.4

[raven @ravenjud]

ate dinner with my fam and i drank liters of beer&ate chips and pickles with bf. i worry abt the scale but at least maintaining a somewhat skinny body while enjoying life gives me peace

[raven @ravenjud]

@electraheart222 +discloseladigin arkadaslar cogu zaman yine seninle ed yarisina girebiliyo bunu cok sik gordum. “bugun hicbi sey yemedim yaa, cok istahsizim, galiba bende de var bi seyler”i cok sik duymaya basliyosun

[raven @ravenjud]

veteran anoreksik nene tavsiyesi: asla arkadaşlarınıza sevgililerinize ednizi disclose etmeyin. asla birine şişkoyum demeyin burda anonim takılıp kusun bu düşüncelerinizi. irl çok iştahsızsınız, mideniz bulanıyo okey? sorarlarsa yiyosunuz yiyosunuz kilo alamıyosunuz mideniz küçük

[raven @ravenjud]

@electraheart222 karsi silah olarak kullanip daha da cok kotu hissettiriyorlar genelde kuzum. gercekten recov destek olacak arkadas/sevgiliyse elbette anlatilmasi makbul ama edtwt genelde cocuk+genc yetiskin ve boyle destekleyici cevreye sahip degil cogumuz maalesef

[raven @ravenjud]

dear edtwt
today i got triggered by a 17 yr old

[raven @ravenjud]

i remember weighing myself at 6 and dreading the number 20, thinking why it wont show 17. it wasnt about my body either, i just wanted it to be 17. i was born to be anorexic i guess i dunno

[raven @ravenjud]

i wrote a whole page of “ill lose weight”s on a paper once. i was like 10 what the fuck
and i was ALWAYS on the normal range weightwise. nobody bullied me except here and there, a few occasions. but i already had disordered thoughts

[ೀ 𝓂𝒶𝓎 ೀ @mayssdiaryy]

This sounds awful but did anyone as a younger child try give themselves anorexia and fail multiple times then actually develop it when they were older or is that just a me thing😭

[raven @ravenjud]

i was almost having panic attacks thinking i couldnt weigh myself (im visiting grandma for a couple months+buying a scale AGAIN would look too sus) AND MY AUNT GOT A SCALE HERE!!! and its in the room i stay!!! thank u ana gods

[raven @ravenjud]

bir lokmanın midemi bulandırdığı boğazımdan girmediği aylar da oldu midemin karadelik olduğu aylar da. bunlar 1-2 günlük süreçler diil. objektif olarak söyleyebilirim ki ikincisi kadar insanı insan değilmiş gibi hissettiren deneyim azdır

[raven @ravenjud]

okkkey skinny legenddddd

[raven @ravenjud]

this is clearly multiple days of eating and u would be shocked to see what i eat in a day and what i do to compensate for that

[chichi🪽 @theyluvchichi]

im so confused theres no way she acc is eating all this and still looking thin even with a fast metabolism how is this possible?? #edrtwt

[raven @ravenjud]

yea ion feel bad for an adult who has access to everything. tbf i dont expect anyone to feel sorry for my ed, and most of us (if not all) dont have the privilege she has. it wasnt my choice to be disordered, but it was my choice to reject recovery

[Tayoncé Defense Attorney @lesbeyonsay]

"she has lymes disease", her fridge is juice, yoghurt and berries and she has a handful of supplements everyday. i want y'all to be so fr.

[raven @ravenjud]

SEVGILI EDTWT HALKI lutfen lax abuselayacaksaniz bile sennosid etkenlilerden stimulan laxlardan ve kayisi caylarindan form caylarindan(sinamekililer) uzak durun. magnesie calcinee gibi OZMOTIK laxlari tercih edin. cok su icin. kamu spotum bitmistir

[raven @ravenjud]

i was 60 kgs at some point of my life and that makes me someone who lost 16 kgs. thats 35 lbs wow. i dont identify myself as someone who lost 35 pounds iykwim

[raven @ravenjud]

we know we are not obese bunbun i still feel the same as bmi 24 at 18.thats a whole 14 kgs of difference. ion even feel like ive ‘lost’ weight tbh

[- @bunnneli]

ill get so fucking much hate for this and probs lose all my moots but i had to get it out lmao, ill log off.

[raven @ravenjud]

bazi insanlar bodyshamingi hakeder arkadaslar mesela koydeki buyucu halaniz, lisede sizi zorbalayan tank kiz gibi

[raven @ravenjud]

@coldbbylys burasi overly woke ergenlerle dolu oldugu icin geri isirmani kimse kabullenememis. dunya guzeli gencecik bi kizsin, uslubun da gayet yerinde. herkes agzina geleni soyleyecek sen de susacaksin herhalde yok ole dunya

[raven @ravenjud]

ik my bf’s ex has an edtwt account here somewhere i can fit my head thru her thigh gap+her food stories are highkey ana

[raven @ravenjud]

hot take: our tdee’s are slightly higher than we think

[raven @ravenjud]

sometimes u forget how disordered you are. mind you my avg step was 10k for the week and my intake was anywhere 2000 on avg. and im 155

[raven @ravenjud]

i ate like shyt this week, all week, didnt track, ate my moms cooking (we love olive oil), ate a big ass hazelnut spread jar myself, snacked everything at sight, never left the kitchen, yet i lost 200 grams