Not your average enthusiastically chaotic, unscrupulously awkward, conscientious lowlife, but definitely the most neurotic. Self-medicating is my jam. ๐โซโ๐ป
He saunters off into his room and locks the door. Then he texts me to fuck off cause Iโm a fat fuck and to not use his card, and eat whatever the fuck is leftover from the shopping I did almost two weeks ago.
The thing is, I already knew he was going to refuse to get me anythin
Got knocked up, found out on 9/03
Dude immediately told his โactualโ GF from Denver that same night. This psycho sped down from Highlands Ranchโฆ with a bat in hand WASTED.
All four sides of my 30 y/o car damaged.
Dude refused to ID her, & escaped with her b4 cops came.
Then we start to argue. Because fuck his booze why couldnโt he just get something while he was out like he told me he would or DoorDash something right now which is something he does for himself several times in a single day??? He refuses and the silent treatment begins.
Anyway he has taken at least 10 shooters in front of me at this point, having left and returned to replenish his stash, promising me a meal but only returning with his booze and tears in his eyes.
Thatโs how I justified allowing myself to be exploited like that, daily. Youโre using me but at least I feel useful for those moments, huh? You grunting with pleasure is a welcomed change to stonewalling me between blatant bullshit lies.โ
That way of thinking is SO FKD UP.