r♡ (shtwt // edtwt)

hopeless mentally ill void

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

unpinning this at 65kg, -1 bmi point.
(pls reply with motivation shit, thinspo whatever i need support)

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

finally gonna start living with my body instead of against it.
i hope you all are gonna find peace one day and remember there is no “sick enough” to start recovering you are allowed to be happy at any time. 🫶🏻🫂

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

i’m gonna try and get my shit back together but in a healthy way. i miss running and i don’t want to live like this forever i finally want to be at peace with my body and my mind. this isn’t working

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

i was so much happier when i ate intuitively

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

i was so much happier when i ate intuitively

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

i cannot so this anymore i binged again i don’t wanna live like this anymore

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

@jasxcals treat yourself with a snack jas you rlly do deserve it! you’re working so hard all the time

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

should i way myself tmrw or on monday next week (binged last night and gonna eat over 1k today)

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

gonna eat over 1k today but also gonna work out a lot so hopefully net is gonna be around 500 which should be fine

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

went to buy snacks 💪 (we love the baby section)

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

left work early i couldn’t stand it today i am so fucking done

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

left work early i couldn’t stand it today i am so fucking done

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

i hate how i am always so hungry at work ughhhhh

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

@jasxcals damnnnn

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

@starvgirl4444 GIRL NO DAS IST EIF TINY DAMIT HAT DER WINKEL NICHTS ZU TUN

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

this is almost triggering a binge again wtf i had enough yesterday no no

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

already had 800cals 🤡

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

cried at work today and they didn’t send me home 🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

@starvgirl4444 DEIN HANDGELENK?!?

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

already had 800cals 🤡

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

the only reason i sometimes consider recovery again is bc i miss running and at one point in my life i want to run a marathon. like i actually rlly love doing extreme sports and pushing myself to my limits but i am just so afraid of gaining ☹️

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

gonna include a max 100cal snack for around 11am between my breakfast and lunch break in case i get super dizzy like today. i think that’s gonna make me less anxious bc i know that i can eat smth bc it’s already planned and i don’t have to worry about eating too much

[r♡ (shtwt // edtwt) @rcvts_]

226cal mozzarella salad for tmrw 🫶🏻