"You didn't know him personally" true, but he was present in every aspect of our life for 14 years, we celebrated every win with him, shared every heartbreak, grew up, learned to cook, finished school, changed.. yes we will mourn with every atom of our being for as long as needed
just read a comment by someone that said they “have to re-realize that he’s gone at least 20 times a day” and i don’t think i’ve related to anything as much as that. the initial shock is lasting for days and is blurring the lines of denial and acceptance
everyone keeps talking about “the little girl inside of me” “the teenage girl inside of me” like no, me right now, the adult version of me is grieving liam, adult me still is a directioner 100% i have never stopped loving and listening to them for a day in my life
I don’t think I really recognized how much of that teenage girl living inside of me still held on to one direction as a safety and a comfort until now .