Anyway. Just all in my feels this week since bestie had her baby and while im SO happy for her because this was a long journey for her, a part of me is also just fucking upset because once again I get to watch someone else in my life live my dream 🥲
I dont use this account much at all anymore but I can’t say this on main.
Seeing all my friends get married and have babies and buy houses and live the life I’ve dreamed of having since I was a child and I’m not going to get that chance at this point.. makes me cry 🥹
It’s really mentally tiring always being happy for other people who are getting the things you’ve wanted for so long. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll ALWAYS be happy for my friends, but my heart hurts on the inside.
I need to find friends doing the same walk of life as me. I love my mom friends and married friends but I can’t relate to anything and often feel left out with them and it’s.. tiring.