you deserve someone who can't WAIT to talk to you, spend time with you, get to know you and fall in love with you. please stop settling for halfhearted, lukewarm, hesitant and indecisive. It's sooooo much better to be alone than to be with someone who makes you FEEL alone.
You should look back on your embarrassing past selves with an urge to wrap them up in the most comforting hug imaginable, not with condescending resentment