@AmongGreyClouds thank you for understanding it and being so kind. I'm just unhappy with how "my limits" have always seem to be far lower than the average adult. that's all. im very privileged to even have the choice to stand as far as i am usually standing from the loop. its ok. tysm ❤️
everytime i try to "be on the loop" i leave the loop feeling drained and miserable. Yet i'm in the wrong for "burying my head in the sand". Maybe yes, i'm coward
Maybe both paths are just as unproductive (because even if I'm aware of things, i can't do anything, lets be real), but one of them is way less depressing and better for my health