this man on tiktok said “youcannot repair a relationship with a man who believes the problem is always your reaction, never his behavior” and that’s real shit.
A man will cheat on you, look you dead in the eye and lie as you cry in front of him begging for the truth, pour his attention into other women, gaslight and completely manipulate your love for him.
Then have the nerve to make you feel bad about your trust issues, your trauma, your mental struggles.
No one talks about how draining it is when your mood is constantly switching between 'its okay, I don't care, I'll be okay' and 'I don't know how much more I can take'
If love ever finds me again, I hope it brings me someone who loves me with the same depth I love with. Someone who would never be comfortable knowing they’ve hurt me. Someone loyal, gentle, intentional, and devoted. Someone who never makes me question whether I’m wanted. Someone who feels like home and somehow feels at home with me too.
Help me release the things I cannot change and trust You with what I cannot control. Remind me that I am not alone and that my pain does not define my future. Amen.”