zahra 🇵🇸

i feel like burning down my life again (inshallah) 🤠 they/she | 28 |📍Buffalo | don’t care 🤷🏻‍♀️

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

I truly never thought I’d stop smoking weed or get off twitter but here I am. Life is weird.

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

Think I lost it all on the day I was born

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

It gets harder, doesn’t it?

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

I can’t wrap my head around the fact that some people just have 1 or 2 dogs lol that’s absurd to me

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

I miss watching my friends play shows 😞

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

This depressive episode is literally killing me. It’s been MONTHS. I’m so over it. I swear I can live with literally every horrible decision I would make if I were manic but I cannot wrap my head around tolerating another day of rock fucking bottom dude fuuuuuuck this

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

@devxdamicox I swear to god it’s the perfect cookie. You’d think it would be overly sweet but it’s not. I need to find the recipe.

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

Crumbl is a vibe rn with people dancing to Hey Ya and their cookies are good, idc fight me about it

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

I want Macy’s Place tomorrow but the problem is there’s just too much. What the fuck am I supposed to get? It gives me anxiety

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

Maybe getting high again would fix me 🤪

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

Either Tades from Hot Mulligan works at my gas station or he fr has a doppelganger

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

I started drinking again thinking maybe that would help me at least get some shit done sometimes but it just makes me even more aware of how much I don’t fucking care about anything anymore 🫠

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

Y’all my mental health is completely crippling me lately and it’s so fucking wild because everyone else thinks I totally have my shit together but I am barely hanging on by a thread lmao

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

Update: I laid in bed with my tiny dogs and ate Thai food and watched vampire diaries and I don’t care 🙃 idk if this is depression or just growing up

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

Old me would have never missed the last show at my favorite venue but I’m already like “idk I’m kinda tired” (the show is not until tomorrow, I’m just cooked)

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

I’ve had to reschedule my appointment for my depo shot 3x and I swear to god if I get my period for the first time in like 4 years someone is going to die

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

And that’s the story of how I accidentally flooded my basement. That 1/2 my dogs kennels are in btw. This is so high up on the list of things I don’t wanna fucking deal with right now 🫠

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

I thought I smelled something weird/electrical kinda in my basement so I unplugged everything and then thought “wait no that’s the sump pump, better leave that plugged in” so I plugged it back in, however today I realized the thing I plugged back in was NOT the sump pump…

[zahra 🇵🇸 @restinpissa]

It’s a great day to have never cared about tik tok