*engaging in a creative activity that i love and enjoy* FUUUUCKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!! FUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!! IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
randomly deciding i didnt need to take my meds after 6 yrs was the best thing i did for myself. immediately lost 20 pounds the first few months and then another 50 till the end of the year. went a lil insane but also bc some bullshit lol
i covered it with shorts and came back with napkin to grab it but it disappeared. when i went to bed it flew near my face a few times. then i heard it dying and buzzing. it sounded like morse code almost but im not sure. it was very weird.
ive been seeing a lot of flies lately. when i tried to shoo one away it didnt move, even when i put my hand right next to it didnt flinch. saw another last night and i thought i killed it & threw it away. then i saw it walk in front of me minutes later as im sewing on the floor