Reverie

"Imagine the amazing fortune of the generation that sees the end of the world. This is as marvelous as the beginning" - Jean Baudrillard

[wendell @0xWendell]

I am the penguin.

[wendell @0xWendell]

I never hated you. I actually wanted to hang out with you after meeting one of your friends. That, is now beyond impossible.

Anyways, this showed me in 2 ways that I have no one, and while I mourn this thing, I hear again that now you’re blasting the last person I have left to work with me for helping me at all. This is so fucking exhausting and yes, I texted you calling a sociopath, who made me sad. And you said more fuck shit about me.

This was fucked but it didn’t make me mad or hate you. It just broke my fucking heart and taught me even more that no one on this earth who has seen everything will accept me, for even you have done something so devastating, unfair, and horrible to me that it impacts the past relationships I have to count on.

What you did is fucking harassment. That’s hurtful. You don’t post about me? You dm about me all the time. It hurts more than you can know, because of where it comes from, and maybe it’s accuracy, that I sometimes think you’re right and want to give up.

The 28 year old sent 4 texts from a burner calling you an asshole then blocking, and that’s like the end of the world, not just pissing on basically a little kid tried to be everything you were.

I’m not hateful towards you. I’m just really sad and devastating every time this comes up. You could send me 1 apology and never speak again to me and I’d be happy. Instead you call me mentally ill and that I’ll try to hurt you to a group chat. I’ve never hit someone outside of ONE time. And you probably.

If I hear an apology then reblock I’ll be really so happy. It was fair of you to block me I guess. But if you don’t - the only thing I have to say quietly at end of a post no one read. In sadness not your anger (you are a very angry guy) is a quiet and maybe tearful “Fuck You Nigga, Fuck You” - the last thing you texted after losing $600 to my well meaning call, after I just made you $3,000.
I spiraled 10x harder after that. I really was close to death this summer and you constantly declare me the homo sacer we cringe speed read about.

Fuck you dude. Fuck. You.

Here’s words from an actual friend who still thinks I’m beyond saving but isn’t a monster.

Goodbye.

[wendell @0xWendell]

This is my gangstalker by the way.

[wendell @0xWendell]

Fuck you niggas be gay like

[wendell @0xWendell]

@R0GER_B1 fun fact I worked on dogebonk Justin was a total retard, little bitch

[wendell @0xWendell]

My experience of trying to leave crypto

[wendell @0xWendell]

Work sample did for dev friend, if you need a video hmu

[wendell @0xWendell]

“I’m under strict orders not to talk to you.”
🥲

[wendell @0xWendell]

I’m not crashing out, I’m addressing something happened today then moving on. It haunted me this entire year and a lot of time before that I know now.

I never considered doing this before. But since this guy might read and knows now that I know what he did, and no longer just overlook it as he hasn’t helped me in the way I asked him to - confirming he really *doesn’t* care if I die or lose more. And bc of shit that got said in a gc.

I was doxed and humiliated by my since 13 years old mentor - who I won’t name or talk about again (if you know you know) in this random small ass space - the most unfair and disturbing socially abusive thing I’ve ever seen in crypto

I had selective aspects (missing everything that happened to me in defi entirely btw, how I ended up this way) dumped every dark fact about my entire life and identity. Hatred of me rooted in the view I’m so pathetically broken so fuck you. Go die. Came up in a group chat today, while I was going through emotions over something very sad for me I finally accepted. It was too much.

It was not just shit like my brother trying to kill my dad and then blowing off his own head but to the most private and originally not intentionally disclosed sex shit to people who don’t even know me. All the addiction shit too. Horrible things that happened to me in 2018, not even 2021 that began my spiral, which caused clinical PTSD along with something that happened in Turkey.

You told everyone that the young kid who wanted to be just like you and pursued the same accomplishments you made should be left to die and never even talked to. That I am so fallen that running into me is an omen of death. I should simply be allowed to die and any help or company - anything other than bullying me - should never be offered.

This was my high school role model. Then friend. Then colleague. To an entire Web3 social club. I was known as a joke and ruined person whose very death (this guy fucking showed me Heidegger, Bataille, Land, Evola) is meaningless.

I have constantly run into this fucking shit with increasing consequences, from people I’m trying to befriend saying “faggot” and blocking me after realizing “it’s him.” Who recounted I’m alive, which was shocking to you apparently and you just chuckled.

That is cosmically cruel and honestly Evil. No one deserves to have their whole life turned into a dark narrative, disclosed, summarized, and ripped to pieces by the very person they trusted and disclosed to most bc of how much they looked up to them.

I’ve had a shitty couple days. Before that a relevantly soul death like summer where I spiraled and nearly died in a bipolar episode caused entirely by terrible things happening to me. A few things played out horribly and in ways I thought they never could. This is in part Bipolar but mainly ASD. I’m actually an aspie. I did and said a few specific things that have made me now even more alone.

I sat in sadness the past few days while writing a cringe and retarded or maybe overwhelming but I think honest goodbye note to a close friend that I was allowed to spiral and destroy my nearly got to irl friendship with because I had no one left to help me and stop me from being a retard going slowly insane & almost literally dying by the end. I always relied on you my mentor to help process these things as a safe, older, non neurodivergent friend I could trust.

Check your messages. I texted you. Like 5 times over a year and 4 of them being in the summer asking for help. Even knowing you had done this. I thought maybe you’d step in to help me, because I’m actually good guy and don’t deserve to lose more, but acted retarded with no oversight.

No, and that shit blew up. Basically because not only was I unstable literally with housing for basically no reason and with almost enough money but every person asking I must have done something terrible to end this way. But mentally uprooted and unstable with no friendly intervention like in past.

[wendell @0xWendell]

losers

[wendell @0xWendell]

I’ve been so hyperdoxed and threatened since 2022 that I don’t rly feel scared anymore. Kill me, coward, if you dare.

[wendell @0xWendell]

I spent my 27th year speaking over to my friends, composed of:

1. a carousel pfp
2. a talking arrow right side pointed
3. a man behind an unbelievably large bronze statue of Trump, who somehow became the best hope of saving me.

All blocked me 😂

how did you spend your year?

[Reverie @reveriestudioai]

@0xWendell And that, is our CEO.

[wendell @0xWendell]

I’ll fucking perma ban your Twitter account with $3,000. Don’t test me I’ll only be poor a few more weeks.

[wendell @0xWendell]

If you’ve seen Mr. Robot and get the reference… this is like the most beautiful thing I’ve ever made. Ty

[wendell @0xWendell]

If I can stop crashing out every 3 months maybe I could be happy again.

[wendell @0xWendell]

It’s so hard to pull the curtains down after a whole year and on such negative terms. I wish I’d known I’m fucking autistic at 12 & get some help rather 23. Slap on top a mood disorder and alcoholism and you have produced a being that is literally impossible to accept forever

[wendell @0xWendell]

I sometimes feel like the Tonya Harding of crypto.
Long ago controversial and caught up in scandals.
Faded over years lost notoriety outside old devs
Worthy of a a Hollywood film that redeems my problematic history.
“That’s the story of my life. And that’s the fucking truth.”

[wendell @0xWendell]

We live in a world where there is more and more information. And also less meaning. - JB

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With $EBT you win SOL if you LOSE on the token. Creator rewards are pointed at one public vault, and after that the split cannot be edited. Get STAMPS to make up for your losses.

Once every 15 minutes the office returns SOL to closed $EBT round trips. A wallet qualifies if:

1. It bought $EBT and later sold that same coin.
2. The SOL it got back was less than the SOL it paid.
3. The sell landed at least ten minutes after the buy. A same-slot in-and-out is a wash.
4. The loss on that closed trip is at least 0.05 SOL.
5. The trade was $EBT. Other coins do not count.

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