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•slow motion breakdown•

[r-edtwt-shtwt @ribcag3z]

i have to remember there is more to life than people who don’t care about me and that no matter how deeply i care for them or try to do things in their best interest i can’t make them treat me well but it kinda sucks nonetheless

[r-edtwt-shtwt @ribcag3z]

cigs & coffee while i wait for the dye to process i’m v tired tonight

[Kan @SleeppyGuy]

My dream

[r-edtwt-shtwt @ribcag3z]

dying my hair takes so long 😓 i doubt i’ll sleep tonight since i have my dr appt early in the morning and i don’t want to oversleep

[r-edtwt-shtwt @ribcag3z]

i’m fine now i didn’t lapse my friends forcing me to get some food with them since i’ve been not eating because of stress but truthfully i don’t have any appetite ik it’s for the best tho

[r-edtwt-shtwt @ribcag3z]

perhaps i should just cut i found a stash of old kai razors and box cutters earlier and they’ve been tempting me since i feel like i deserve it anyways i am completely useless at being anyone worth anything

[r-edtwt-shtwt @ribcag3z]

ended up scratching my arm again god i hate this i’m not sure if i’m truly ever making progress i feel so awfully hopeless i have so much to do and i can’t bring myself to move ontop of this all i had a panic attack about my dr appt tomorrow i feel so dumb

[r-edtwt-shtwt @ribcag3z]

i just want to feel stable

[r-edtwt-shtwt @ribcag3z]

i feel so awful again i hate how things can go from feeling nothing to feeling like the world is collapsing for the smallest reason

[r-edtwt-shtwt @ribcag3z]

i miss baking for people i haven’t in so long i adore bringing little sweet treats to those i care for its so fun

[r-edtwt-shtwt @ribcag3z]

i don’t know why my nervous system can’t separate messaging someone first and being stoned to death but i’m not a fan

[r-edtwt-shtwt @ribcag3z]

@d3nture_gluee i’ve had red in various shades many times it used to be my go to i’ve done mossst colours but i haven’t actually done red in a little while so im excited to bring it back

[r-edtwt-shtwt @ribcag3z]

i wanna dye my hair today please give recommendations for the colour <3

[r-edtwt-shtwt @ribcag3z]

i feel all over the place today i can’t form a solid opinion on how i feel

[r-edtwt-shtwt @ribcag3z]

@d3nture_gluee i was impatient waiting for anyone else to suggest anything so you’ve been selected as the winner!! (thank you for the suggestion sweet)

[ً @mvej3758]

I feel like i'm larping being a human

[r-edtwt-shtwt @ribcag3z]

@mvej3758 at least it’s not impatient i suppose

[r-edtwt-shtwt @ribcag3z]

my therapy is upped to 2xs per week for the next 3 weeks 🥲

[r-edtwt-shtwt @ribcag3z]

dreaded therapy time but on the plus side a butterfly landed on me so maybe it’s a good sign