Lucy • ルーシー

Hi! Lucy (she/her), 25 • anime and manga • mostly Fruits Basket and Chihayafuru • 日本語が話せます

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

always & forever

[໊ @buffys]

who’s YOUR shayla?

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

@KIRO7Seattle What a misleading headline.

The article says they want everyone to work in person at the office 3 days a week, not have 3 day workweeks

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

Hi, happy Taichihaya day 💕

https://t.co/Dp7iiwBZVD

@TaichihayaD #TaichihayaDay2024

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

If you survived reading all that, thank you. Hopefully I'll be able to post here again, and most importantly reconnect with friends and learn to enjoy my memories of Japan. (9/9)

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

I've realized now that's no way to live my life. I don't want to live that way.

So I'm going to be selfish and say:

If you are open to having a relationship with me as I work on slowly rebuilding myself and my life, please do let me know. I want to earn trust back. (8/9)

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

you have about me/my behavior.

The only way I've survived up until now is pretending my time in Japan didn't happen. That's included posting on other sites pretending to be happy, which I'm sure has only added to feelings of bitterness people have towards me. That's valid (7/9)

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

久しぶり

It's been about a year since I've logged in here.

I want to apologize to everyone I unintentionally burned bridges with. Leaving Japan to move back to the US was the most painful experience of my life. That place, as well as the people I met there, and the (1/9)

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

and in the way you deserve. You are all lovely people, and I have never stopped caring about you. I have been in the darkest place, but that's not an excuse for being a shitty friend—I only hope it serves as an explanation. You are so valid in having whatever feelings (6/9)

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

reacted this way, and it makes me ashamed in a lot of ways. It's been hard for me to process.

What I am most upset and ashamed about, though, is the fact that this has led to me leaving friends behind. I sincerely apologize to everyone I haven't kept up with properly (5/9)

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

to speak to my friends, look at pictures without grief, and continue the hobbies I love that surround Japan. I am working hard, and I'm not 100% there yet, but logging into Twitter has been a big step for me, as stupid as that sounds. I have no idea why my psyche has (4/9)

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

practice the language, or read manga/watch anime. It brings up such feelings of grief, and so many tears that I haven't been able to force myself to face it.

I have been in therapy in an attempt to process these emotions because the truth is that I really want to be able (3/9)

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

experiences I had there quite literally saved my life. Having to leave was devastating, truly heart-shattering. I haven't really recovered even now, a year to the day that I left Tokyo.

I can't manage to look at pics, talk to friends I made there/in relation to Japan, (2/9)

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

@greciabab Price?

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

@Jessica26073089 Your profile won’t let me DM you, but I’m interested. Price?

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

Me writing a Furuba fic again??? More likely than you think.

Also hi, I’m alive still and more writing will be done soon now that I’m bad on social media. 💕

https://t.co/vGHqqHrYwY

[tinny 🌙 @chidoridosasuke]

This is canon now 😭😭😭

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

@kyoruyeye I’m fucking howling what is this

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

@kyoruyeye SCREAMING

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

stop, I can’t take this right now

[Daily Taichihaya ✨ Chihayafuru @DTaichihaya]

#Chihayafuru
#ちはやふる

[Lucy • ルーシー @riceballcatfb]

@kyoruyeye It’s definitely the train station! It took me seeing one in person to figure it out though 💀😂