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#edtwt // 𝗆𝗒 𝖽𝗂𝗀𝗂𝗍𝖺𝗅 𝖽𝗂𝖺𝗋𝗒🪽🌸🤍🏹

[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

✿ fawns’ updated #edtwt intro ✿

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❥ she/they
❥ ifb if you’re 18+
❥ ana, relapsing
❥ not new to edtwt

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[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

@suncncr what app is this? also i’m frozen

[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

how accurate is this do we think

[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

AND all the clothes i own i bought at my lw, and none of them fit anymore so it makes me feel like absolute shit. i want to cry

[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

i’m genuinely losing my mind. scale isn’t moving even though i’m under 1k cals a day so i say fuck it, eat a shit ton of fruit, then want to cry because i’ll never be at my lw again. how did i have so much control before

[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

why is it so easy to binge on blueberries FUCK

[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

my fiancé had tooth surgery so hasn’t been eating solid foods and he’s usually the one that cooks so i’ve been doing the same meals literally for a week and i’m going a little crazy

[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

i hate not having a plan for dinner like i’m genuinely tweaking OUTTTT

[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

i look forward to my bagel every morning like everyone looks forward to their yogurt bowl

[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

@venusianpoison doing this 🤗

[Luxie ⋆.𐙚 ̊ @luxiyee]

I miss eating like a fat bitch without a care in the world. I miss having cheesy pasta, I miss cereals, I miss drinking iced lattes and hot chocolate without trying to make it as low cal as possible, I miss eating out with friends and family without having to plan it beforehand

[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

i miss my flat stomach why did i think i was FAT

[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

how was everyone’s weekend?? i feel great being locked back in. having some sort of accountability with this account is so helpful

[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

so proud of myself, went to a fair today and didn’t give in to ANY cravings. my family was pushing me to eat some of their food and i said no even tho it all was food i would’ve devoured before

[𝑀𝑒𝒾 🐾 𝑒𝒹𝓉𝓌𝓉 @littlebubblezz]

anorexia is so stupid bro why am i triggered by my own body heat

[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

not being “underweight” anymore is definitely the reason for this relapse. looking back at my old bcs, i’ll be content between 95-100lbs. why did i think i looked so huge

[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

intake was just under ~600 today. we’re so back

[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

@_M00NSMATCHA i kept losing until i ended up in the ER, “recovered” for a few months, and now i’m back after gaining 15 pounds 😀 i hate it here

[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

okokok my goal is 800-1000 cal limit. my binges have consisted of halo top, drizzlicious, and fruit (because i tell myself it’s low cal so it doesn’t count) breaking that habit NOW.

[⋆˚࿔ 𝒇𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @riicecakefawn]

my list of reasons for my rel@pse:
-i need to stop binging
-the BLOATING my god
-not fitting my lw clothes anymore
-acne