MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ

⠀　⠀𐐪　⠀ Riley 🩷  they/she　　 　
⠀　　 𐙚　　18, MDNI 　 ₊  ◞
　˙　　˳　　⁺　　BPD, ASD, DID
SHEDTWT, propara

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

Why did nobody told me I can literally just use gauze and an ace bandage. I don't have to buy fucking plasters and shit. Like gauze is dirt cheap and I can just reuse the ace wrap. Do y'all hate me.
#shtwt #shedtwt #shrtwt #shedrtwt

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

Is it possible my body hates my ass for cvtting and it gets really weird around the time I usually cut? Been nauseous and weird two evenings in a row now but I'm not sick and my blood pressure is all normal, pulse too.
#shrtwt #shedrtwt

[. ݁ ˖ 𝘴𝘢𝘺𝘶𝘳𝘪 .⊹ ݁ ˖ @sayurililytiu]

pls guys put your age in your bio pls

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

@puppystarves Wait, the jeans with the scars, that looks so good... Like almost purposefully showing them but also in a 100% fine and okay way, I love that, genuinely.

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

Feeling so awful right now... I should've cut yesterday. I don't care about my rheumatologist appointment next week, I'll cut anyways, I don't care if they see.

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

My person is so nice to me and so caring. I'm so lucky to have them. Just sad that I'm getting bad again instead of getting better.

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

@Ghost12_24 @puppystarves -- suffering, they cook with the completely new creatures and plants, they make friends, learn of the friends' traumas and make difficult decisions to help them even if it doesn't feel completely right. It's an anime that has had me the most invested ever.

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

@Ghost12_24 @puppystarves It has some of the best world building I've ever seen, completely new creatures, ecosystems, history, illnesses, economy... The main characters are a young girl and a robot who looks like a young boy. They choose an adventure they cannot come back from, experience triumph and--

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

I'm genuinely so grateful for them. I don't know if I should believe the things they said regarding permanent damage from 'just' baby beans but it did feel nice and validating to be told that it is fucking concerning. Hopefully I'll be able to stay above beans in the future.

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

So they babysat me on call until it was too late for me to cut in the bathroom without raising suspicion since I live with family. Turns out I've got like scar/cut dysmorphia or some shit because theirs are 'only' styro mostly and also not as long as mine.

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

I've been seeing their scars on call and it's been kind of triggering me because theirs look more concerning than mine due to the number/spacing of them. I fucking hate myself.

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

I feel like such a larp the doctor who said it was not too bad stitching me up fucked me up so so so badly...

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

@puppystarves That's crazy, oh lord...

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

I've always stopped at baby beans and never did more but I feel I'm not bad enough if I don't do more.

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

@babywr3ck Holy relatable.

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

I've been seeing their scars on call and it's been kind of triggering me because theirs look more concerning than mine due to the number/spacing of them. I fucking hate myself.

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

I feel so fucking disgusting browsing shedtwt while in a call with a friend who is recovering from an ED and struggles/struggled with SH and was a part of this place. Obviously didn't show them but I feel like shit regardless.

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

I feel so fucking disgusting browsing shedtwt while in a call with a friend who is recovering from an ED and struggles/struggled with SH and was a part of this place. Obviously didn't show them but I feel like shit regardless.

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

Me when I cut but then blood comes out instead of white plushie filling:
#shrtwt #shedrtwt

[MDNI ˚⟡˖ ࣪ Riley 𓂃۶ৎ @rileyisunstable]

Where my 3k bucks at y'all?!?