valerie 🦷

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an angel stuck in a junkies body

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

#edtwt // serving fatspo 😍

(ignore my dirty mirror)

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

hi guys sorry for dissapearing 😭 my body dysmorphia has been really bad lately bc I gained weight😞 might post body checks later so people can bully me into starving again LOL

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

God knew not to put me in America cuz I would've fucking shot myself by now

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

gonna do ritalin and the alcohol i saved up so i can numb myself instead of crashing out and spam texting

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

how it feels to be replaced/ abandoned by the most important person in your life

(I knew this would happen)

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

#drugtwt ˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆

25mg of ritalin :3

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

also hi everyone im alive lol

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

starving so that when i kill myself ill be hottest corpse in the morgue

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

not to be pathetic but outside of my family i only talk to like 3 people 😭
and to make it even worse 2 of them get paid to talk to me (therapy) and the other one is my bff who lives on the other side of the earth.. i love it when my fear of abandonment makes me isolate myself❤️

[mimi ೀ⋆｡ @strwbrysnrtcake]

she is BACK @ritalinretard i love you diva 🫂🫂🫂

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

#edtwt // bodycheck

weightloss took my boobs from a C cup to a measly A cup 😢😢😢

it's so over

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

had 2 failed su1cide attempts last week and i wish one of them worked.

my 2 friends replaced me and i dont see the purpose in getting back in touch with them or making new friends bc they all end up realising im too much and just a bad friend in general.

euheghhh kms

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

everytime i drink i end up blacking out/ passing out bc i hsve no self control

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

took 5 (maybe 6 im not sure) shots in like 1.5 hours 🎉🎉🎉 i will ptobs drink more in a bit

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

found pictures of myself when i was 13 and good lord😭 no wonder i started drinking

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

found this post on pinterest and its making me tweak out.
people downplay bpd so much and its so frustrating.

its not cute obsessions or just having mood swings

i literally dont know who the i am and my fear of abandonment has made me ruin every sjngle relationship ive had

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

what would you consider 5'8 for a woman?

(just curious lol)

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

@makohatcals ofc!! 🫶🏻

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

#edtwt ˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆

guess my bmi!! (ignore the mess lol)

[valerie 🦷 @ritalinretard]

i keep dissapearing lol hey