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Used to be cringe-worthy account

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Capek bgt deh netizen, isi otaknya negatif think melulu. Ga capek kah kepalanya mikirin “what if” nya orang lain 😂

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@miwbagde Dah tau simpang siur tapi lu sebarin. Jahat lu.

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@kring_pajak untuk aktivasi coretax PNS maksimal hari ini apa esok ya? Dari tadi coba akses websitenya bad gateaway terus huft

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Masalahnyaaaaa. Kita kerja beneran. Hari H, ampe hotel pun mandi ga tenang karna ditungguin laporannya 😭 Ga makan siang, demi sampe ontime di venue. Kelar acara balik baru makan, itu pun selesaikan berita dulu. Masa dapetnya banyakan yg di kantor input berkas? hiks

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Plis gimana caranya biar sabar, ikhlas legowo dan percaya bahwa akan digantikan dengan rezeki yg lebih baikkk??? 😭🙏🏻

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Bismillah Desember balik lagi, tapi pulangnya happy 🤍

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Siapa sangka kemaren happy, minum matcha kalcer, haha hehe hihi hoho. Eh ga nyampe 24 jam udah berubah jadi huhu sama HAHHHH???

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Memang harusnya hidup enggak jumawa. Tiba-tiba adaaaa aja surpresnya.

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Aku ga tau kalo masang balik kipas angin setelah dibersihin bisa bikin sefrustasi ini.

Soalnya ga bisa asking My Dad’s help dan ngomong “Bahhh, ini kda bisa lagi masang kipasnya 😭” anymore 💔💔💔

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I’m tired making my dad’s death as the reason behind my mental breakdown.

But i can’t lie that it does make it worse.

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I feel like. Kok kayaknya aku ga bisa apa-apa gitu. Yg berguna. Yg bikin bahagia. Tanpa perlu divalidasi.

Validasi diri sendiri? Dah sering(dalam hati, atau waktu sendiri).

Saking seringnya sampe takut jadi NPD.

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Capek. Mau produktif dan cari something new to do, tapi aku-nya males. Can’t help but blaming my own self for this.

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But when everything’s done, everybody got appreciation, but me.

People even made posts about it. How they work really hard to make that project works.

Kira-kira masih dosa ga kalo aku minta validasi kalo situasinya begini?🥲💔

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So there’s something that they need me to do. Unlike usual, they ask me to do something more, where unfortunately i was sick at the moment.

I still do it anyway, even tho i have to redo it soooooo many times because i want to gave my best. 💔

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But when finally i got to do something, they don’t even bother to appreciate me.

That’s how i feel.

Apakah aku haus validasi? 🥲

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Seems like everyone are busy but me.

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Udah tau ga punya siapa-siapa, eh ngeluh pun dilarang. Huft.

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Hidup lagi demotivated disuruh tugas malem minggu.