You know I know I'm not the best looking or have a lot of money but for some reason when I get replaced it's normally with cheaters, drug addicts, abusers and so on. I hate being right about people. If you're gonna replace me at least upgrade not downgrade.
You know you would think that after while one could find a way to feel normal and not some kind of fuck up..
Speeding doesn't work, alcohol doesn't work, smoking doesn't work, and the girls at the clubs don't work..what is wrong with me?
After crashing my dream car I'm now trying to drink away the issues. Unfortunately I can't drink myself away. I need a million bucks so I can leave and start over somewhere new.
Well as usual between November and February shit hits the fan. Buried my dog, my cat, and just hit a deer and destroyed the front end of my car. 4 fucking years in a row of shit going south around this time period. I just want to be happy
I'm getting tired. Tired of carrying on the weight of everything. Tired of giving everything and not receiving the same energy back. Family, friendships, relationships.
As far as I know I don't know anyone personally on this account which means this should be an ok place to vent. I am so fucking goddam tired. Speed isnt making the stress doubt worry anxiety and self hatred go away
The alcohol drugs and girls don't work
Born to lose I guess