@pastelkreeper@thedigitaldash_ and on top of that there’s guilt because you understand what she was going through and you have to deal wirh the split feeling of anger and sadness along with guilt and self hate. it’s a rough cycle
@thedigitaldash_ yes. my mom is a bit nicer now and it makes me angry. i needed that as a child and was deprived. now you seemingly do it with ease which means you could’ve done it the whole time. cool.