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౨ৎ — 𝗌𝗆𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗐𝖺𝗂𝗌𝗍, 𝗉𝗋𝖾𝗍𝗍𝗒 𝖿𝖺𝖼𝖾 . . .♡

[َ @rocksdtar]

Luminous ⋆˚꩜｡

[َ @rocksdtar]

Vellichor ★

[ً @holyaches]

there is love in me the likes of which you've never seen. there is rage in me the likes of which should never escape. if i am not satisfied in the one， i will indulge the other.

[ً @holyaches]

hey， i just wanted to save you. so why did it come to this?

[ً @holyaches]

it’s a strange way of saying that i know i’m supposed to love you.

[ً @holyaches]

then suddenly you're left all alone with your body that can't love you and your will that can't save you.

[ً @holyaches]

i still believe in god， but god no longer believes in me.

[ً @holyaches]

the world remains constant over the centuries. but human life is like the dew at dawn， or a bubble rising through water. transitory.

[ً @holyaches]

i love you， i love you. this may sound like a cliché but my heart has a hole in the shape of you.

[ً @holyaches]

pretty boy， pretty voice. i will never forget you for as long as i live.

[ً @holyaches]

but the heart has its own memory and i have forgotten nothing.

[ً @holyaches]

peach pits are poisonous. this is not a mistake. girlhood is growing fruit around cyanide. it will never be your for swallowing.

[ً @holyaches]

i love you， i love you， i love you. we're soulmates， you and i， but that doesn't mean it works. my soul can't bear to be without yours but that doesn't mean it works.

[ً @holyaches]

i don't like my mind， i don't like being left alone in a room with all its opinions about the things that i've done， so i blast music loud and i work myself to the bone.

[ً @holyaches]

but ask the right saint. and he'll tell you that death always comes. more than once. that every wound like regret is both itself. and its reflection.

[ً @holyaches]

i don't need to hold myself back anymore. i'm giving all of myself to you. and i'm taking all of you for myself，too.

[ً @holyaches]

something so foreign about family， like an ill—fitting suit.

[ً @holyaches]

i am alone and am suffocating because i cannot give voice to my emotions.

[ً @holyaches]

i am trying to remember you and let you go at the same time.

[ً @holyaches]

i shall pray that you may continue to exist somewhere， too.