If we date, don’t stop being you. Keep having fun, keep seeing your friends, keep chasing your goals, and keep enjoying your life. A relationship should add to your life, not take away from it. Just make sure you save time for us too.
if you broke my trust & i loved you enough to let you back in & allow you to rebuild my trust again...only for you to leave me hanging & call me crazy for wanting reassurance and maybe a lil extra effort to gain back the security you took away... you're the worst type of person.
“isolate as much as you want to become stronger, even if you see that loneliness is an unbearable hell, it is much better than the multiple masks of humans.”
- Dostoevsky
nobody talks about the angry stage of healing. the rage you feel when you realize how much and how long you were taken advantage of. the absolute disgust you feel towards those people that mislead you. it comes in waves. sometimes you’ll feel healed and then it suddenly hits you.
Trauma is crazy. Cause what do you mean during survival mode I dissociated so hard I can't remember half of my life and I can only sometimes remember most of my memories of someone brings them up. I cannot recall more than half my life like.
at a certain point you just get tired of your own shit. you have to force yourself to meditate, workout, eat mindfully and read the books to form a routine that gives you a sense of happiness within yourself again. it's exhausting i know, but you gotta keep fighting for yourself because no one will take care and love you the way you can for own being. this life is not something to go bout so casually, everyday is your first and last time to embrace this moment. this life was gifted to you with a planet to explore and souls to experience. so show up for yourself.