When you have period cramps at work where you have to maintain a rationalised emotional attitude towards people who don't reciprocate the same level of professionalism as you do.
Writing this puzzling feeling rn because I don't know whether it is a hormonal imbalance, or I'm mentally drained, or emotionally tired, or socially disconnected (which I don't like being talked to atm), or just simply tired. It just happens w/o warning nor permissions.
Happy Mother's Day to my Mama who always includes me in her prayers. May you live long and healthy.
From your nonchalant daughter
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Foremost, I'm sorry for ranting about what I've been praying for. It's just that I'm tired and I don't like people telling me what to do because I've been working out all these things alone. ALSO, I don't like earning things using connections because it hurts my pride.
You're out of reality. You don't know the real problem inside your circle, you refuse to know the cause, you don't want responsibility, and you don't like being accountable but you like to be praised, to be the centre of attention. You always like the favourable results, but you
don't know how to work. You crave recognition, but you don't like to be engaged. You want to be known for, but you always disappear. You want the people to follow you, but you don't want to be a good example. You like being respected, but you're not respectful. Generally, ...
Ako naman this year! Manefesting ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
I realised that I have so many things that I have lost because of self-doubt. If ever I'm given the chance to go back to those years, I will do it all scared.
I'm afraid that nothing will ever come to be. I'm with plans but will they ever come to life? I have courage, will that ever last? I have moral support, will that be enough? Questions that only one can know. "Can I see my future for a minute instead?โ I wished.
I'm about to quit my job this year. Hopefully, I can find one as soon as possible. The transition may be tough but still hoping for the best. A lot of uncertainties because there's no guarantee that you will be accepted right away. There are a lot of plans in my head but...