Rose || EDTWT

Cbf setting up a serious layout || 18 || ifb ||she/her || sw/hw: 64kg || cw: 43.7kgs BMI 16.4

[Rose || EDTWT @roses2roses2]

As much as I’d love to say I’m attempting recovery, I feel like this is just going to go from anorexia to obsessing over gaining muscle/getting big and masculine. I know I’ll never really be happy with myself. But I think I’m going to delete this account when I’m ready to do so.

[Rose || EDTWT @roses2roses2]

Hey everyone, this is kinda tough to talk about, and I know that I’m not even very active on here, but I think I want to attempt recovery. I’ve been struggling with my gender identity in the back of my mind for years now, but lately, it’s all I’ve been able to think about. -

[Rose || EDTWT @roses2roses2]

And I’m only just realising it. I struggle hard to feel feminine whereas masculinity feels so natural to me. I want to become strong, muscly, manly. I don’t want this skinny, feminine figure anymore. I don’t think I ever really did, I’ve just been forcing femininity onto myself.

[Rose || EDTWT @roses2roses2]

Gang…. I hate myself but I’m gonna have to end it here 😀 my whole body whent numb and I kinda blacked out I think?? And my head hurts so bad I can’t do this. I have class tomorrow… breaking with a fibre brownie and atkins chocolate protein shake 😓😓

[Rose || EDTWT @roses2roses2]

I’m ngl guys I’ve been at my friend’s house the past three days and have binged every day of it (ate like a normal person) sooo (liquid fast, I am allowing myself coffee and matcha)

[Rose || EDTWT @roses2roses2]

Lightwork no reaction (will probably get a few more steps in because I’m gonna go walk to the shop,, not by a lot tho the shop isn’t too far)

[Rose || EDTWT @roses2roses2]

Raghhhh I need money to buy a scale I haven’t been able to weigh myself in like. A month

[Rose || EDTWT @roses2roses2]

Girl in my dorm block’s real name is the fake name I use on here

[Rose || EDTWT @roses2roses2]

Does anyone wanna be moots 😭 I wanna be more active on here but it’s hard when I’m just talking to myself

[ella ✿ relapsing @starvedgemini]

#meme #relatable #funny

[Rose || EDTWT @roses2roses2]

Sorry for the inactivity as well I’ve had class and I’ve actually made friends

[Rose || EDTWT @roses2roses2]

I went out with my friend yesterday and today, she took photos of me and oh my god it’s just sent me spiralling I’m so fat and I hate the way I look

[Rose || EDTWT @roses2roses2]

I want to recover but the moment I see a little bit of weight gain I spiral

[Rose || EDTWT @roses2roses2]

It’s 1AM I have class tomorrow I just want to sleep how do I stop feeling like this bro (Ik the answer but)

[Rose || EDTWT @roses2roses2]

Piercing myself instead sh or kms I really don’t feel okay right now so I’m turning it into something fun yay piercing I did my nose and I’m gonna do my eyebrow next

[Rose || EDTWT @roses2roses2]

Piercing myself instead sh or kms I really don’t feel okay right now so I’m turning it into something fun yay piercing I did my nose and I’m gonna do my eyebrow next