I just got in my oldest bed and she was sweetly touching my face. Even if the pain isn’t all gone, she does a hell of a good job at making me realize why I need to stay.
@_katoaminen I also second the person who said jealousy. The “moment” everything changed was when I hit puberty, very early. I got unwanted attention that she wanted and I was punished for it. She has an ED as well and became very competitive with me as far as forcing me to eat past fullness!
@_katoaminen My mom and I both have BPD. As a kid I had to go through her episodes of hating me and then love bombing. Over and over again. I think she wanted a daughter to replace what she went through with her mom. But when I wasn’t exactly how she pictured me to be, it made her angry.