tren

he/him ☆ shedtwt ☆ 21 ☆ 5’9 ☆ fatphobic

[tren @rotbrainrat]

changed adhd medications and very like omg so much better. also got a genetics test and from that the lexapro and methylphenidate that i was on were like not good for me. and i fet it fuck riddlen that shit sucks. shout out to adderall, its like such a difference of good vs awful

[tren @rotbrainrat]

i think i need a different adhd medication im like focused which helps but like the side effects im getting i think are more then it should be and i dont feel like any emotion, its very baseline no movement not good or bad just i feel like going thru motions are just keep busy

[tren @rotbrainrat]

i cant figure out if i slept all day and have no motivation because i was sick and headache even with medicine, or if im depressed or because i have no motivation to take my pills either

[tren @rotbrainrat]

shout out to holding people or hugging people or just feeling any sort of affection that is warm and present in think i need more of that and i feel like i get away with more of it when im drunk and i just wanna hold someone and cuddle

[tren @rotbrainrat]

the back of my head on the left side is kinda pulsating it doesnt hurt but i think i might need to drink a bit more water and take some tyneol in case of hangover tmr especially since i need to wake up early and do stuff

[tren @rotbrainrat]

shout out to drinking and meeting people and since being drunk it makes conversation so easy and i feel so normal and also adhd medication

[tren @rotbrainrat]

nonexistent and i think in the next coming days i will most likely be eating less when not interacting with friends over weekend so hell yeha

[tren @rotbrainrat]

so far all i’ve had today was one protein bar and a slice of pizza and a couple shots of vodka idk how much in or calories but like i honestly only ate the protein bar and pizza bc i was with friends and not actually hungry for them so im excited bc appetite is like pretty much

[tren @rotbrainrat]

it actually kinda crazy how much my appetite is non existent in the first day, i’ve eaten nothing today and haven’t felt hungry at all except around 2-3 for about 20 mins but passed rather quickly

[tren @rotbrainrat]

shout out to adhd medication bc i actually did work and felt so focused and normal and great and apparently it also helps surpressed appetite and i have not been hungry at all today, things are looking up

[tren @rotbrainrat]

finally met a psychiatrist today,
she said i had
“an interesting brain”

she also said i have autism and adhd
the more u know

[tren @rotbrainrat]

the way that i just got myself a bottle of wine and drank it last night for my birthday lol

[tren @rotbrainrat]

@penertime thank u :)

[tren @rotbrainrat]

its my birthday im now fully legal

[tren @rotbrainrat]

just had a panic attack l o l

[tren @rotbrainrat]

tw fresh self harm and a small bodycheck
I’m now alone in the dorm and since i have no roommate no fear that they would report me if they found out i was self harming again and no one to worry about catching me
this is bad i see but also
good
but im fat rn so i deserve it

[tren @rotbrainrat]

i did it, very little but got two deeper ones ish

[tren @rotbrainrat]

i kinda wanna cut my arms but if i do i dont have like bandages or money rn to buy them to cover up especially since im thinking of going to the gym tmr

[tren @rotbrainrat]

im debating on if i should cut myself but my legs are still sore from leg day on friday but im just feeling like depressed and awful i hate change so much

[tren @rotbrainrat]

i know poeple only care to see my self harm and body checks here but honestly fuck my roomate for putting me in such a shitty position, its not that hard to be a considerate person but i guess thats just shows their character