hyde 🥀

crashout acc || trying my best to recover!!

[meru ⚢ @plaks4ngel]

i feel so much guilt for letting anyone know me ever

[:3 @eternalfreakk]

idk im too paranoid i always think someone is hiding animosity or just pretending to be nice while slandering me

[hyde 🥀 @rotnhyde]

I talk too much let alone stand up for myself

[hyde 🥀 @rotnhyde]

It’s just best if I stop trying and shut up overall bro nothing ever good happens to me when I talk

[hyde 🥀 @rotnhyde]

Finally having the courage to speak up after years just to be told I’m abusive maybe I should just stop speaking

[hyde 🥀 @rotnhyde]

He just laughs every time I cry when I tell him to stop and she’s just as bad as he is

[hyde 🥀 @rotnhyde]

She laughs and I know my dad would too I can’t take it

[hyde 🥀 @rotnhyde]

Everything is just getting worse I hate being at home

[hyde 🥀 @rotnhyde]

Omg sorry I’ve been in an abusive household my entire life and have bad trauma

[hyde 🥀 @rotnhyde]

Tell me I need help despite just calling me an abuser and a manipulator and a liar for saying I don’t want to be alive

[hyde 🥀 @rotnhyde]

Straight after forcing me to say I was manipulating her by saying I’m suicidal she goes on about wanting me to always tell her when things are tricky what

[hyde 🥀 @rotnhyde]

I feel so humiliated and I feel like I’m a horrible person

[hyde 🥀 @rotnhyde]

I just had to stan there and say I lied to get her to stop going at me

[hyde 🥀 @rotnhyde]

This is why I don’t tell you anything

[hyde 🥀 @rotnhyde]

Genuinely just stood there apologising for being suicidal cuz you act like the victim what

[hyde 🥀 @rotnhyde]

I hate knowing all the messed up things that happened to me can my brain just kill itself

[hyde 🥀 @rotnhyde]

I hate when things get bad because I start remembering things I don’t want to remember and starting forget other things as a response 🫩

[hyde 🥀 @rotnhyde]

I don’t even cry that often and I’ve been almost non stop crying for hours

[hyde 🥀 @rotnhyde]

debating things after having such a bad week

[ANYA @Anya_4_9]

how it feels spending more than $10 on anything