Nicole Ryan

stuck in the void

[Nicole Ryan @rotten_carousel]

And then being accused of lying to your doctors when they won’t medicate you or diagnose you with said disorder. And being told you need to get a “proper” diagnosis as if three different doctors not diagnosing you with bipolar isn’t enough

[Nicole Ryan @rotten_carousel]

What type of abuse is it when someone who isn’t qualified to be diagnosing you with disorders keeps doing so and pushing you to get treatment for disorders you don’t have 🤔against your actual psychiatrists say as well…

[Nicole Ryan @rotten_carousel]

Like imagine constantly being told you need help and that you have bipolar, that you need to specifically word things to your doctor so they’ll put you on medications the doctor doesn’t think you need…

[Nicole Ryan @rotten_carousel]

Ello I have returned

[Nicole Ryan @rotten_carousel]

I keep fucking forgetting I have this app

[Nicole Ryan @rotten_carousel]

Finished this

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Good morning

[Nicole Ryan @rotten_carousel]

@rottedbrainz LMFAOOOO

[Nicole Ryan @rotten_carousel]

@rottedbrainz He looks so clean

[Nicole Ryan @rotten_carousel]

Almost finished

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More progress

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I’m doing portrait studies currently

[Nicole Ryan @rotten_carousel]

Note to self: never trust anyone enough to open up about your mental health. They’ll inevitably use it against you later on

[Nicole Ryan @rotten_carousel]

Like my dad said I look like I’m getting fat when I was 115pounds at the time. And my mom used to poke my stomach and laugh in my face and even tell my sister to look at how big my stomach is

[Nicole Ryan @rotten_carousel]

It’s weird how my parents used to make fun of/comments about my body and weight but I was always a very skinny/small person

[Nicole Ryan @rotten_carousel]

@nearbears This nails are so cute did you do them yourself??

[Nicole Ryan @rotten_carousel]

@ssjcaptures you’ll always find and be attracted to people/relationships that mimic those things from your childhood until you break the cycle one day.

[Nicole Ryan @rotten_carousel]

Isn’t it weird how your childhood reflects into your adult relationships. I was raised to bottle my feelings and emotions and in every relationship I’ve had as an adult I had to do the same

[Nicole Ryan @rotten_carousel]

@ssjcaptures Exactly!! It raises adults who fear opening up or have to learn emotional intelligence at a later age and struggle with personal relationships

[Nicole Ryan @rotten_carousel]

Not me googling what shrimp look like alive at 4am