theres something deeply wrong with me because sometimes i look at him and get genuinely angry that i cant crawl into his chest and sleep behind his heart like some fucked up little parasite
when i say i miss duncan i mean theres a violent little animal inside my ribs scratching at the walls because his hands arent on me and im expected to act normal about that in public
@duncnthetall is the kind of man that makes obsession feel reasonable like yeah actually i do need to know where he is, what he ate, what song is stuck in his head, if he slept well, if anyone looked at him too long, if he knows id burn the whole world down to keep him warm 😵💫
loving him rewired something in me and im not even being dramatic. i used to think i was made out of sharp edges and bad timing, then he touched me like i was something worth keeping and now i’m just permanently ruined in the most beautiful way possible.
i don’t think people understand how insane it feels to love someone so much that your whole body starts recognizing them as a place. duncan isn’t just “my person” in some cute little caption way, he’s where my nervous system goes when it wants to stop being at war with itself.