did it hurt? when you realized you don’t allow yourself to express any negative emotions because you’re afraid people will be mad at you for being mad at them
People think depression means your sad and crying all the time. depression for me is being stuck in a twilight zone. i can't think, i don't respond to things, nothing is interesting, i just feel empty. not sad, just blank. i have a lot of days like this and they are hard.
God is always teaching you lessons about what you, specifically, need to care about. forget all you think you should care about, all external input, listen to the One who created you and learn about yourself.