Grieving by accident

2 young 2 be without him. He was ripped away following a routine procedure. Scared & feeling overwhelmed & alone. Going 2 need support. Thank you in advance 💔

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

We’re an hour and a half from seeing in 4 years since that devastating day! How on earth have we got here? We’re not sane, we’re not lunatics, somewhere in-between! Missing him every day, he’s missing so much, kids both now well and truly adults. #widow #grief ramblings… 💔

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

A #widow considering meeting new people, maybe even dating, whilst navigating this new normal - I’m sure many have their own *thoughts on this…

*If you do have an opinion, please can the comments be kind - just curious

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

… & what I wanted 2 add but ran out of characters 🙄 huge thanks 2 u all here, those of you who offer support, advice & guidance really make a huge difference 2 my 💔 #widow existence! I truly find your understanding so uplifting. I really do appreciate each and every + msg 🥰 x

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

And I’m home… was a lovely opportunity 2 get away, I know not many are as (dare I say) ‘fortunate’ - we all have varying ideas of that don’t we…
But as a #widow nearly 4 years in, my life looks incredibly different. My adult kids keep me going and offer me support everyday! ☺️

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

@Mannersache1 Absolutely! So glad… 🥰

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

It’s my last day on my 1st solo trip abroad… I enjoyed most, some and not so much in equal measure - sun, well received (even burnt a little! 🫣). Going 2 see the celebrations here was definitely worth the €20 round trip, eating alone - the worst bit 😢 but I did it 💪🏼#widow

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

@thehappichick It becomes more manageable, doable, not sitting back letting life happen-able… it’s not better, just different I guess

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

I’ve been here 3 days… it’s beautiful! It’s hard… eating alone, sunbathing alone - in a world that’s designed for couples… 2 loungers with a parasol in between - the ‘spare’ lounger whisked away when someone has an extra person in their party… an extra person? Novelty #widow

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

@birty4306 @Shauna_Tweets @LadyWolvo Me too, honestly it’s kept me awake at night, but I did it and it was ok - infact it was super quick through security in both countries! 🥹

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

@maureenw678 It’s the 4ever unknown isn’t it! No 1 preps for this part of married life - though I guess it comes 2 most.
Good 4 you doing things anyway… I was petrified boarding that plane and landing and all the other bits involved in getting here. But here I am! A world that keeps turning

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

So far so good… A #widow managing so many 1sts including this solo trip abroad.
1st song on the system when I sat to eat was our 1st dance wedding song! Can’t be a coincidence can it…
Wish me luck

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

@PoppysDream I was fortunate that I met a local widow who was a month behind me in our journeys… she has massively helped me through so many 1sts and she’s now my best friend! There are support groups out there if you can find one that suits for you… Hope you find some support ♥️

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

On my way… ✈️
Never thought I’d be taking a trip solo abroad! But here I am #widow #firsts

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

#widow #movingforward so I’ve booked a trip, some of u may recall I booked a local trip to see how it might feel. Now? I’m off on a plane! ✈️ if you knew me, you’d know this is a big deal-bigger without my person - but I’m doing it! 5 days of sun, books & wine. Wish me luck 🥰

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

For those of u who were following my journey… just a little update. Life still smarts - every day at some point or another, sometimes more than once, but we have to try to keep putting one foot in front of the other! This time? I’m away, by myself again, old hat at it now… 🥰

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

https://t.co/Bq814kbQK5
Haven’t posted for a while, things have just been diddling along - Nothing great, nothing awful - but above is a link to a petition for #widow payments for those with families and their Bereavement Support Payments, please give it a moment of ur time ♥️

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

@wendy_passy Thank you lovely! Xx

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

#grief put holds on my plans for #furthereducation

I’d had grand plans and then reconsidered due 2 our devastating loss.

Now, nearly 3 years as a #widow I’ve decided to try again. This time, not to further my career, but just for me! #selflove #betteringmyself wish me luck! 🥰

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

@khargaoasis I’m going to stick with what I know, I work in education so am looking at an early years and child development degree.
Thank you for taking the time to message! 🥰

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

@pcamps1 Thank you, I appreciate your message 🥰

[Grieving by accident @ruby_dood1es]

@GeeMinx Thank you, that’s what I’m hoping 🤞🏼