in an effort to manifest it into reality, i've started pretending i have a girlfriend. i text her good morning and good night, i clean up my apartment more and make sure to exercise, and we watch Love Island and Survivor together. she's making me wait for sex
if you think about it, i can't really control my subconscious. so can any thoughts or feelings that may or may not exist there really be said to be a part of 'me'?
she showed me that pure unalloyed love still exists. she took my old calloused heart and made it sensitive and young again. she lovemogged me and my cortisol spiked and i ran