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i still can't believe you picked that for your stupid code name • she/her • icon by @poika_ picrew • lockwood & co. deserved better • TJ POWAR fan account

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

TJ POWAR HAS SOMETHING TO PROVE BY @JDeoWrites IS OUT TODAY!!!!!!! HAIRY GIRLS REALLY FUCKING WON 🔥🔥🔥

goodreads: https://t.co/ZRRxr3ZpxJ
order links: https://t.co/vlhM91teX3
extended sampler: https://t.co/domlQsMML9

and please request it at your local library if you can!!!!!

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

i am never going to forgive myself for missing teenbookcon in houston, tx this year. like i am filled with Regret

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

i need to live on my own bc the bit of time i had while my parents were out of town vs how i felt the moment the garage opened on saturday says everything (tbf and perhaps even notably, there were no fights, and i still feel this way)

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

i'm so mad i had something Good typed out on here but then the thread got glitchy (it was overlapping?!) so i saved the draft and closed out and the draft ISN'T THERE... hate it here

[jesmeen kaur deo @JDeoWrites]

Add to goodreads: https://t.co/hdvQ1j6dEz

More info on my IG, where (regrettably) i am more active! Same handle!

[jesmeen kaur deo @JDeoWrites]

i'm not here much anymore, but I wanted to share that my next book, publishing next year, will be an adult romance 💍❤️

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

and it overcorrected so bad in terms of the tl not refreshing bc now if i so much as go to my profile or any other page, like the chat, the tl refreshes instantly when i return to it 🤦🏽‍♀️

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

losing my mind (derogatory) bc for about a week no new tweets were loading, and eventually i learned on reddit that this is happening to other ppl who have old versions of the app, and even tho i lost the bird years ago, i still had the word "tweet" and other older features

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

as well as some aspects of the older "look" but in order to use the app and have the tl actually load, i had to update it 😭 and the last time it had updated was on august 3, 2023... so i braced myself, expecting it to look so much worse, AND IT DOES

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

i was so relieved, but yesterday night it was gone again, and this time, it was gone EVERYWHERE (incognito mode, all possible search phrases) and i am. so upset.

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

losing the google dictionary that pulled definitions and synonyms from oxford languages is so devastating

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

i lost it a month or two ago? but it still worked on incognito mode and i think it still worked if i typed define [word] instead of [word] definition or [word] meaning, and then after a few weeks it fully returned to the oxford languages google dictionary (with synonyms) and

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

I HAVE NOTIFICATIONS ON FOR JKD ON IG BUT I AM NOT BEING NOTIFIED WHEN SHE POSTS FKAJDJSJSKDKDJSAJSJSJWJAKSKWKSJDJSKFKSKFKSKDKSKWKDJWKRKWKDKSKSK

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

one thing this experience taught me though is how far i've come in terms of not worrying about this [family] shit bc now i have so many memories of things i've thought about for years without any family lurking in the background

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

actually reposting this part: what is happening to me i can't wait for this to be over

i also can't stress enough how flabbergasted i am WHILE this is happening bc i know i was perfectly fine before monday evening

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

whoa. glad that's over (for the most part)

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

no point in reposting since i basically reworded most of it in this thread but this part was also shocking: trying to think my way out of this is somehow reminding me of anxieties i hadn't thought about for YEARS this is insane

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

that complete 180° yesterday was so shocking it honestly gave me whiplash like i was having a perfectly fine and productive day up until that point with zero thoughts about any of this

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

idk what the fuck happened around 7:30pm est yesterday but for the first time in what feels like a while i experienced a level of anxiety (about the power and control my family has, specifically on my dad's side) that was so debilitating i literally couldn't do anything

[barracuda @ruhwubby]

that was so strange and felt somewhat random and while i can pinpoint exactly what caused this sudden anxiety and have a decent guess as to why my body and mind reacted this way, i am still so surprised that this happened

holy shit that was exhausting. feeling better now though