rumandtights

String of thoughts, needed a vent account, tw for EDs, depression, you get the gist, my ED has ruined my life so 🤷🏻‍♀️ AN-b/p

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

Fuck it, I’m fasting for as long as possible, I’ll phone in sick with a migraine tomorrow and just see how long I can go, maybe I’ll start to death, who knows 🤷🏻‍♀️ #edtwt

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

I really miss fasting. I miss seeing how long I can go without eating. I want to do it again. Fuck going to work tomorrow, I want to phone in sick and see how long I can go without eating any food. #edtwt

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

Ahh hello edtwt! Haven’t been around much lately, but I’m kickstarting my return with a 60 hour fast... wish me luck! #edtwt

[Care @butterfliedarms]

Having an eating disorder is so fucking dull. When you’re young, you think it’ll make you interesting. Nah. It makes you selfish and exhausted and sad, and once you reach a certain age, no one really cares if you recover or not. Especially if you don’t look ill, like 90% of us.

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

@SkinnyMoon42 Also went through a weird phase of being OBSESSED with Ancient Greek philosophy and attempted to teach myself Ancient Greek so I could read Plato’s Republic in the original text... was also teaching myself Spanish. I was unsuccessful in all of these things 😂

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

@SkinnyMoon42 I would get so happy and exciting that I had panic attacks because I was so overwhelmed... who has panic attacks because they’re excited?! This bitch 😂 I was impulsive and took loads of risks because everything sounded amazing and I wanted to do ALL THE THINGS

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

@SkinnyMoon42 BUT then I kept going up and up and up, and I felt like I was vibrating. I was really hypersensitive, and it felt like the sound waves were physically hitting my skin and causing me to vibrate in time with it. I came out with some pretty insane stuff at the time 😂

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

@SkinnyMoon42 For me, it felt amazing right up until it wasn’t fun anymore. I had so much energy, was waking at 5am and felt like there wasn’t enough time in the day. I wanted to learn everything, read everything, was writing essays for fun because I started finding everything so fascinating

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

I need to respect the fucking lockdown and realise that an urge to b/p DOES NOT COUNT as a good reason to go the shops. It is not a necessary journey. I have plenty of food, I don’t need more. #edtwt

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

Back to day 1 binge free again... I can do this, I can get to the weekend without b/p 💪🏼 #edtwt

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

Today is day 3 binge free and I’m so proud of myself - this is my longest b/p streak since the lockdown was announced 🎉 fingers crossed I can keep this up! #edtwt

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

I’m going to set myself a goal to not binge until next weekend. I really need to focus on following the government guidelines atm. I’m a key worker so I’m still working, I just need to make sure that when I finish work, I come straight. The fuck. Home. #edtwt

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

HEY GUYS, I disappeared for a while, oops... lockdown is weird. What I hate the most about it is that I’ve been going to the shops more than I need to for binge food... fucking hate my ED 😭 I feel so guilty, binge shops are definitely non-essential, wtf is wrong with me?! #edtwt

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

I hate how selfish this ED makes me, I want to follow the guidelines and I feel so guilty whenever the binge monster takes over...

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

@butterfliedarms You too my lovely ❤️

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

Seriously, can someone message me every hour and remind not to fucking eat?? Feel so disgusting rn. #edtwt

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

@butterfliedarms Aww hello! I disappeared for a while, but I’m okay, lockdown is just a weird time... hope you’re okay! 💕

[eli @unstabelle]

ed twt can you please rt / like this if you're over 22 years old, bonus points if you're 25 or over!

like i just want some more moots that are closer to my age so i don't feel like a such a lonely grandma on here, pls

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

Let’s do this 💪🏼 #edtwt

[rumandtights @rumandtights]

Don’t care about anything anymore, gonna fast for as long as I can. I. Don’t. Need. Food. #edtwt