ruminate_always

overthinking ahead 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 | 20, 5'5, 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

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we meet so the emotions that i was feeling when it was actually happening is dampened

idk anymore

basta yun (8/8)

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i swiped left kn his profile cuz i eventually realized that i wanted him back solely because i wanted the familiarity of him, not necessarily because i still liked him

i still do but most of my intense want over him was immediately gone after i realized that i only wanted (1/?)

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in the frame of, this will make collaborating with them at work easier, and not necessarily a friend i can depend on and shit

and i still vent to my shs peeps but since we rarely see each other, by the time that we do, things like this have already passed by the time (7/?)

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idk

god

i hope i never learn what you think of me after i broke up with you

im sorry luis

idk what i need to do to let go of you cuz therell always be a what if in the back of my head that youre also still not over me

idk i hate what i did to you (3/3)

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of course he would also go back to tinder, we met there

tangina my heart sank when i saw his profile again, i legit exited the app so quickly

fuck, is this a test of whether im actually over him, cuz my ass knows im gonna fail it haha

maybe ill stay clear of tinder muna (1/2)

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every bone in my body is saying to swipe left on him again, entertaining my what if di pa rin siya over me

but thinking about learning that hes actually over me hurts more

he deserves to not get screwed over just because his boyfriend is having feelings for a another guy (2/?)

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new hair who dis

also nagstain yung hair dye sa noo ko hshs

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eme hshs

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me when i have rehearsals tommorrow: ☺️☺️☺️
also me: 🫩💀😵‍💫

my ass has not been able to rest for the past mont haha

like lowk ive been doing school shit for the past month with no days where i just rot and do nothing school related 💀

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i just know my breakdown will be cinematic ☺️☺️☺️

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ccs is hell istg 🫩🫩🫩

of course i woke up late for an exam taos bukas two exams na naman while balancing ass groupmates in devap, itsraqa, and it-prog

like idk the initiative is not there yall hshs

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womp womp

like- sinend niyo to sa family gc namin and no one replied 😭😭😭

gurl if hes not getting the vibe that his own family hates his then hes just dumb ☺️☺️☺️

like not you acting woe is me tapos a little birdie told me (my ate) na nagaway kayo ni mama a few days ago 💀

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happy birthday owange and wime :3

my 7 and 6 year old babies hshs

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like- istg

thats why fuck the patriarchy, and im doing it by topping one muscle bottom at a time 😌😌😌 NA PARA BANG-

idk rant over ig hshs (7/7)

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idk yall i wish gender wasnt a thing, i hate that a determining factor of someones worth is their gender

like dont pmo all

wtf do you young boys have to "toughen up" while young girls have to "cover up"

hey! one question, what if we dont (1/?)

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adding to not finding having a romatic relationship with a woman that desirable cuz its already present in the gay community

theres this notion that twinks are supposed to be "feminine" and submissive which is then expected from them to be the bottoms (6/?)