ما هي نور؟

Invincible, Fighter, Determined. Actress, Writer. La dentisa. Pray for my grandpa, I died when he did. “You never know” 'استمر كأن لا شيء يؤذيك'

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

I wrote you with every drop of blood, till I was heard to run out of blood on the notebook sent to you, remember me.

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

It’s 3.7 already🥹🥹🥹😭😭😭

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

Saying goodbye with a very heavy heart to the last day in here, with this routine, with this status, with everything..
Saying goodbye with a very heavy heart even to the things I always hated & I wish they would end..
Because I hate endings, cut routines & goodbyes..😭😭😭

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

Soo many feelings..
That’s bigger than me!

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

Last night here😭😭😭

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

I’ve been asking myself so many questions relating to how I might be feeling when my wedding is 2 days apart :’)
I’ve been thinking about the answer for so long..
That when it’s now..
I’m literally clueless how it feels like!
So many feelings I can’t tell..

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

So clueless about how I’m feeling though..

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

The thought of it as a turning point..
Old life to leave behind..
New life to start over..
So exciting, so overwhelming, so scary…….

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

No reaction beats my younger brother’s reaction for the dress!🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍 that was insane!🥹🥰

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

If I’m so blessed my any means it would be having the bestest bestfriends anyone could ever ask for🤍
So blessed & so grateful🥰

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

So hard to tolerate the amount of anxiety that comes with this😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

A night without crying.. ameen!

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

And we never know that the last moment is actually the real last moment.. never ever..
This just happens later..

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

Why no one warns you that in your last 2 weeks before you get married you’ll cry all these tears?😭😭😭

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

Bestied so bad with anxiety😭

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

And things just have to come to an end😭😭😭

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

Same spot..
7 months later as a complete stranger seeking job & doubting herself..
Today.. as someone who never wants to leave😭😭😭😭😭

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

This came with a lot of tears😭😭😭

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

Wiki how to take it easy on myself??!!😂

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

Many feelings towards me being the one who does everything do myself like literally!!
Super damn exhausted & super damn proud & super damn need to rest & reset.. and stay grateful to my own self for everything I just created out of nothingness…

[ما هي نور؟ @rustythoughts_]

Just being emotional about literally everything & nothing.. oh well.. at least I kinda know I’m overreacting😩