{after spending hours with someone who i conversed earnestly with & referred to me as their friend} what if they hate me. what if i annoy them. what if they never want to see me again bc im so annoying & stupid & ugly & did everything wrong & said all the wrong things And
being vulnerable & honest with someone after spending the entirety of my life minimizing how i feel & making myself as Small as possible to not Bother anyone feels like ripping my heart from my chest & handing it to them with a steak knife. i am being eaten & consumed