u ever lower ur standards for someone then get fucked over SO badly that u have an existential crisis AND feel incredibly stupid bc u willingly decided to give a chance to someone who showed clear signs of being emotionally unhealthy, unreliable and incompatible with u🙈
so fun
no bc when i learned that your emotional brain can literally impair & override the part of your brain that controls rational thought, it completely shifted how i respond to others emotions & mine. at that point of emotional intensity, logic won’t make sense. all you can do is be
while i was deep in grief, i was researching brain waves & one thing i learned is that during severe depression/grief, we experience theta waves (which usually occur only before deep sleep) while we are awake. we literally sleepwalk through life due to sadness. just wild.
Trauma makes you see someone's lack of effort as an invitation to try harder and prove your worth. Healing makes you see their lack of effort as their lack of interest in you and reminds you to stop forcing that connection.